Growing up I always felt secure. I knew bad things happened in the world. I knew that not everyone was as sweet and as full of goodness. But the sense of security I had was still there. I didn't worry about someone settting off a bomb that would kill millions in a matter of seconds. I didn't worry about planes being hijacked and crashing into buildings. I used to believe that this country was safe. My belief in that has been proven wrong. And from what I am seeing it hasn't been safe for a long time, but at least before September 11, I could keep believing in that and not worry about if I'll be here in 10 years instead of where I'll be in 10 years which is what I used to wonder. I was wrong to be so naive in thinking that this country was completely invincible to terrorists. But if I had to choose between having a false sense of security and having a true sense of fear, I'd choose the false sense of security.

This country may become as safe as it should be but the sense of security I had growing up and kept having until the morning of September 11, 2001 will never return. Is that a good thing? Some people knew the truth. They knew this country was just a sitting duck for terrorists. I didn't know that. I was brought up to believe the United States was the biggest, toughest, unbeatable nation in the world. Maybe it is and these hijackers just caught us at a weak moment.

More than human lives were lost that day. The sense of security so many of us had and relied on for so long. The lives and the security is something no one in this country will recover from. And just like those thousands of lives that ended on September 11, 2001, our complete feeling of security will never come back.