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Crazy Thoughts 1.2

Saturday, Mar. 25, 2006 - 10:04 p.m.

EPISODE 1.2: �DADDY�S DOING WHAT?!?!?!�

[Scene 1: Sonora is on the computer and is chatting online. Jason walks in]

JASON
Hey, what are you doing??

SONORA
I�m either placing an online personal ad or talking to a bunch of random people about random things in a random game room while pretending to be a random pervert.

JASON
As long as you stay out of trouble, have fun.

SONORA
You didn�t even think it was a personal ad did you?? [VOICE OVER] As if I�d ever put one of those up anyways, single or married. It�s like advertising the fact that you�re desperate with no pride and have an intense need to humiliate yourself by trying to describe yourself in 100 letters or less.

JASON
Nahh. But on a guess here�s how you�d write it�

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh this should be good. Let�s see, will he try to say something sweet and get laid or play mean and make me want to tie his dick in a knot??

JASON
MWF seeks WM who is into S&M M&M and FM who has a WF he can loan to the MWF�s kinky husband, will supply own KY. (Married White Female, seeks White Male, who is into Submission and Master, candy and FM radio who has a Woman Friend he can loan to the Married White Female�s kinky husband, will supply own KY jelly)

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Or he might pull a 180 and totally confuse me.

JASON
What do you think??

SONORA
I�m not sure.

JASON
Did you look at your father�s computer last night??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Yep still there.

JASON
[looks at Sonora�s confused look] Remember he wanted one of us to see why he couldn�t access his bookmarks??

SONORA
Oh. [VOICE OVER] To be 100% honest, I didn�t know he knew how to bookmark a site. You learn something new every day.

JASON
I would do it but..

SONORA
You don�t want to deal with his million questions and his �do this, do that� routine.

JASON
Well yeah, and I have to be at work in an hour.

SONORA
Chicken!!

JASON
No.. smart. [grins]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] True, I wonder if I could claim to have some weird 24 hour bug that requires me to stay away from computers.

[SCENE 2: Sonora is logging on to her parents� computer. She appears to be bored]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Well my father isn�t due to be home for about half an hour so if this takes longer than that and he gets home, I may have to invest in a valium. [starts working on the computer] Okay, that works, that works.. Now�s let�s try the wonderful bookmarks he can�t seem to get to work. [opens the bookmarks] Hmm.. Okay it won�t let me click. Let�s try settings.. Oh for crying out loud. [clicks something] He has it set on double clicking instead of single clicking of bookmarks. Now why would he do that?? I swear the longer my father is on the computer, the less he seems to know. Soon he�ll be forgetting how to turn it on. [changes the settings and goes back to the bookmarks] Now don�t get me wrong, I really do love my father.. For the most part he�s a good father and he�s there for us when we need him. I just don�t get these things he does sometimes like for example.. He asks me to set up a chat program for him but does NOT want us knowing what his nicknames are or when he wants us to write e-mails for him but doesn�t want us to read them as we�re writing them.. He wants us to just write the words without concentrating on what they say all together. Now, Jason and I are not allowed the same luxury. And all we did was not want our chats broadcast and our e-mails read to the general public.

[FLASHBACK]

GAIL
Why are you being so secretive?? Are you doing something you�re ashamed of?? There is no reason in this world why you should feel the need to hide anything from us.

[BACK TO PRESENT]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Now when she found out about my father�s almost insane need for privacy on everything he does on the computer right down to how long he�s on each night, she said:

[FLASHBACK]

GAIL
He�s a grown man and what he does on his computer is nobody�s business but his.

[BACK TO PRESENT]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Does that just scream double standard hypocrisy or what?? One major difference is that my father won�t even tell my mother what he does on the computer. Jason and I tell every single detail to each other. Something is wrong with that picture. [pause] Anyways, it looks like the computer is working fine now. Jeez could the man have anymore bookmarks?? Well time to sign off before he gets home and starts acting like I�m the unpaid repair lady. [stops and stares at something] [VOICE OVER] What the hell?? Someone please tell me I am reading that wrong. [The monitor is showing a bookmark named �SEX MATCH: Find The Best Partner For Your Secret Desires�. Okay surely this was a bookmark that came with the computer.. although we got our computer the same day and this never came with it. I�m probably just reading this wrong. [clicks on the bookmark and a website comes up with tons of naked people and sex messages] Okay there goes that theory. Maybe he was just curious. [looks over at the corner where it says 14.95 a month and then over at the login where it has her father�s login name and his password] Maybe he�s just a trial member. [clicks login and the monitor shows �Welcome Back Leo] Oh my God, it knows his name. [clicks on view/edit profile] Okay he�s actually filled out one. Let�s see. Name: Leo Jamison. Okay maybe he wasn�t feeling very creative and just used his real name. AGE: 54. LOCATION: 427 Snowfall Lane, (city and state is mentioned) WHAT THE HELL!?!?! MARITAL STATUS: Looking. PHONE NUMBER: Available upon request. [sarcastic tone] Oh yeah because that�s a lot more private than your HOME ADDRESS!! DESCRIBE YOURSELF: Good looking, well hung, eager to please and willing to travel to meet people. Oh� My� God!! My father has turned into a religious freak whore!! LOOKING FOR: A hot woman looking for a good time with a good guy. [pause] I think.. I�m going.. to be sick. No forget sick.. I�m going to hang myself in the bathroom with the good towels.. And use the old ones to hang my father!!!!

[SCENE 3: Jason comes home. Sonora is on the couch writing in a notebook]

JASON
Hey. I missed you so much today. [kisses Sonora]

SONORA
Is that all you men think about?? Getting some??

JASON
[looks around] I�m sorry, I�m looking for my wife, have you seen her??

SONORA
I�m sorry. I missed you too.

JASON
Something wrong??
SONORA
Depends.. What if I told you my father is a cheating bastard with the morals of a guinea pig and the self confidence of a porn star??

JASON
Oh I don�t want to know. [goes to the refrigerator to get a drink]

SONORA
[gets up and goes to him] Oh no you don�t, I�m not keeping this to myself.

JASON
I�ll buy you any DVD you want if you do.

SONORA
Don�t you even want to know??

JASON
Okay.. Tell me.

SONORA
I was on his computer today and I found a website he goes to and let�s just say it wasn�t G rated.

JASON
Go on.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] What do you want, a picture?!?!

JASON
You mean.. it was.. A porno site??

SONORA
Well it wasn�t a fan site for Bozo the Clown.

JASON
Oh come on Sonora, we go to porn sites all the time. Yes it�s your father but so what??

SONORA
You�re missing the point. He was basically at a pick up site for people to meet, say hi, have sex, and then move on to someone else.

JASON
Maybe he was just curious and wanted to see the pictures.

SONORA
Jason..

JASON
Hon, your father is extremely religious and would never cheat on your mother.

SONORA
Then why does he have an ad up that says he�ll meet them anywhere??

JASON
Well he couldn�t really bring them here now could he?? [grins]

SONORA
Jason, this is serious!!

JASON
No Sonora, seeing your father shoot someone is serious, your father actually screwing another woman in your parents� bed is serious but him going to a porn site isn�t that serious. And besides, we go to porn sites.

SONORA
We don�t advertise that we�re looking and give out our home address.

JASON
Did he do that??

SONORA
No I�m saying it to see what you�d say.

JASON
Okay maybe that�s a little..

SONORA
Fucked up??

JASON
Yeah..

SONORA
I mean what happens if he gets a Glenn Close� Fatal Attraction woman and she comes here?!?!

JASON
Well I wouldn�t go dressing in that bunny suit of yours if she does.

SONORA
Jason!!

JASON
It was a joke.

SONORA
That�s not all.

JASON
Oh??

SONORA
I looked on his bookmarks and history. He has been to over 200 porn sites in the past week alone. [VOICE OVER] I don�t even know of 200 porn sites.

JASON
I hope he wasn�t at any of them I went to.

SONORA
Would you be serious??

JASON
What do you want me to say??

SONORA
I�ve set his chat program to log the chats he has.

JASON
I�m sure that�s a felony of some sort.

SONORA
I don�t care!! He�s doing something more than just looking.

JASON
Are you going to read the logs??

SONORA
Yeah.

JASON
You know that�s an invasion of his privacy right??

SONORA
Jason I don�t care. He violated our privacy by giving out our home address. This affects us too.

[GAIL is heard at the door]

GAIL
I�m home!!

SONORA
I�ll be right back.

JASON
Sonora don�t!!

SONORA
She has to know.

JASON
You have no real proof. The only thing you have proof of right now is that you�re being nosey and your father is an older man still into sex.

SONORA
I�m going to tell her.

JASON
It�s a mistake.

SONORA
Do you want to come upstairs with me??

JASON
Do I WANT to?? No.

SONORA
Coward.

JASON
No, smart. This isn�t a good idea.

SONORA
Yeah it is. [opens the door and goes upstairs] Umm.. Mom??

GAIL
Hey honey. Look what I found in the gift shop at the hospital. [holds up 2 teddy bears kissing] Isn�t that adorable??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh my God this isn�t good. Here my mom is having a warm fuzzy moment and here I am about to tell her that her husband is a cheating louse.

GAIL
Is something wrong??

SONORA
Ummm mom.

GAIL
Yes??

SONORA
I�ve.. Umm�found out something.

GAIL
Oh my God.. You�re pregnant.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Good one mom.. NOT!!

GAIL
Is that it??

SONORA
No.

GAIL
Then what??

SONORA
Dad has umm� been doing something. He�s been..

GAIL
Sleeping until noon?? Oh I know. I don�t know why he sleeps so much, he says he goes to bed not long after me.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Yeah right.

GAIL
So�

SONORA
Mom, he�s been going to.. Porn sites.

GAIL
Excuse me??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh God, here it comes. I remember when she found out Jason and I go to porn sites.

[FLASHBACK]

GAIL
Have you two no shame?!?!? How could you?? That is disgusting. You have no business going to them.

SONORA
What�s wrong with it??

GAIL
What�s wrong with it?? Have you no pride?? Married people in particular, have no business going there. They are sick and I hate those sick sites. I�m sure you can find more appropriate sites to go to.

[BACK TO PRESENT]

GAIL
And how did you find this out??

SONORA
Thru his bookmarks and history. [sees Gail getting upset] [VOICE OVER] I knew she would want to know. My father is in deep shit now. I almost feel sorry for him.

GAIL
[starts yelling] And what the hell business is it of yours to go nosing around on his computer??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Umm, am I missing something??

GAIL
Answer me.

SONORA
He wanted us to fix something on it.

GAIL
Well I don�t think you need to be nosey in order to fix something now do you??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh okay I get it, she�s upset with me because I�m the messenger.. You know the old phrase �don�t shoot the messenger�. If she�s this mad at me imagine what she�ll be saying to him.

GAIL
Don�t ever let me hear about you doing that again.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Okay okay, message received, now can you go yell at the true guilty party.

GAIL
Are we clear??

SONORA
Yeah.

GAIL
Okay, now what should we have for dinner??

SONORA
[confused look] [VOICE OVER] Oh I get it, you�re going to yell at him later.

GAIL
Any preferences??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Yeah how about a bitch slapping across his face with a bloody nose on the side.

GAIL
Sonora??

SONORA
You are going to mention this to him right??

GAIL
Why would I do that??

SONORA
Well for one thing you hate porn sites.

GAIL
Yeah so??

SONORA
Well he�s been to quite a few.

GAIL
That�s his personal business Sonora. What he does on his computer is his business.

SONORA
Even if it�s porn sites??

GAIL
He�s an adult Sonora.

SONORA
So?? You were pissed off at Jason and me for going to a porn site.

GAIL
That�s different.

SONORA
How?? [VOICE OVER] This I can�t wait to hear.

GAIL
There�s a big difference between 26 and 54 Sonora.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Last time I checked they both equaled legally an adult.

GAIL
Look I�m not discussing this with you. Stay off his computer ok??

SONORA
But mom.. That sounds like a double standard.

GAIL
When you have children you will understand.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Nope, sorry.. Double standards and I have never gotten along very well.

GAIL
Listen.. You were young when you tried to go to them and you are still young. You are a young married woman and Jason is a young married man.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Why do I get the feeling she�s going in a direction where no man has gone before.. At least a rational one.

GAIL
Your father is an older married man and with older married people it�s okay if they go to those sites. It�s a way to have fun. Now when you get to be his age, it�ll be more acceptable.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] That is one of the dumbest things I�ve ever heard in my life and that includes a half dozen presidential debates.

GAIL
Do you understand what I am saying??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Yeah, you�re a hypocrite. That�s pretty easy to understand. Well I�m going to get in my ship and head back to reality, enjoy your world called denial, been lots of fun.

GAIL
Sonora??

SONORA
What if I told you he was giving out our personal home address on one of these sites??

GAIL
I would ask how you know??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] How do you think?? Lucky guess??

GAIL
Same way as you found out he goes to that sites.

SONORA
Yes.

GAIL
I�ll talk to him, get him to take it down.

SONORA
That�s it??

GAIL
Are you wanting me to get into a fight with your father?? What kind of child wants that??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] A sane one??

GAIL
Just don�t worry about it anymore.

SONORA
[starts walking downstairs, looking defeated] [VOICE OVER] I�m in the Twilight Zone.

[Sonora walks in and sees Jason]

JASON
How�d it go??

SONORA
Ummm.. Well.. [VOICE OVER] How many ways can you say �what the hell�??

[SCENE 3: Sonora quietly opens the door from upstairs into her and Jason�s part of the house. She closes the door quietly. Jason is standing there behind her. Sonora doesn�t see him]

JASON
You�re up early.

SONORA
[gasps] Shit!! You scared me!!

JASON
I�m sorry.. Next time I�ll ask permission before I speak in the morning. [grins]

SONORA
Ha ha. [smiles]

JASON
What are you doing upstairs??

SONORA
Umm, looking.

JASON
Oh.. At what??

SONORA
Ummm [VOICE OVER] The stairs?? The deck?? The various TV�s scattered around. The possibilities are endless.

JASON
Your father�s computer??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Or that. [nods] Yeah.

JASON
Find anything??

SONORA
A few logs.

JASON
Did you read them??

SONORA
What is this?? �I Love Lucy�?? Next thing you know you�re going to be telling me I can�t be in the show and yelling in Spanish.

JASON
Nahhhh.. I speak German better anyways.

SONORA
I just want to see he�s saying.

JASON
You know what he�s saying Sonora.

SONORA
Yeah and he�s not saying it to his wife.

JASON
Look, I�ll admit he�s not exactly being honest with your mother and that he�s technically maybe cheating but your mom doesn�t seem to care.

SONORA
That�s because she doesn�t fully know.

JASON
And you�re going to educate her??

SONORA
Yes.

JASON
And what if you tell her and she still doesn�t care??

SONORA
She�ll care.

JASON
Sonora, she�s just going to get mad at you.

SONORA
As long as she gets mad at him too, it�ll be worth it.

JASON
And he�ll be mad at you..

SONORA
[pauses] Do you think he�d come after me and try to kill me??

JASON
Noo.. But..

SONORA
Sorry, I guess that was pretty paranoid to say.

JASON
Your father isn�t going to kill you. He might be mad at you for a very long time.

SONORA
What will he do??

JASON
Take my advice, save yourself the worrying and the bitching at and don�t look at those logs. Just pretend you didn�t find them.

SONORA
But I did and I have to know if he�s a sweet father that I love or a perverted cheating bastard.

JASON
Knowledge isn�t always the best thing. And think about what it�ll do to you if you find out he is a cheating bastard.

SONORA
Isn�t it better to know exactly what kind of person your father is??

JASON
Will you still love him??

SONORA
Of course. Why wouldn�t I??

JASON
Where are the logs??

SONORA
I sent a copy of them to myself thru e-mail.

JASON
Okay.

SONORA
[walks over to the computer] [VOICE OVER] I�m doing the right thing. I have to know.

JASON
[sits on the couch next to her] I�m here for you.

SONORA
Are you going to read them with me??

JASON
[shakes head] No. You can tell me the highlights but I don�t need to know every word.

[Sonora takes a deep breath and gets on to the computer and pulls up the logs and starts reading. Over the next few minutes she shows Jason several parts. She has tears in her eyes]

SONORA
You don�t get any clearer than that. [VOICE OVER] That son of a bitch.

JASON
Are you okay??

SONORA
Yeah. [VOICE OVER] Peachy.

JASON
I still say let it go. I really don�t think your father would do anything violent or anything but knowing you, you will worry about it.

SONORA
Yeah because I�m paranoid.

JASON
No, because you have an anxiety disorder and you worry about things that aren�t always a cause for worry.

SONORA
[wipes her eyes] You know when I was up there I looked at his history again. It said he had been to all these places to get info on where he�s claiming to be and what he�s doing. He�s gone all out on this.

JASON
It sounds like it.

SONORA
[points to a spot in the log] Look at that. He�s cussing!! My father prides himself on the fact that he never cusses!! Look at how he�s talking. This doesn�t sound like him at all.

JASON
No.. [shakes head] It doesn�t.

SONORA
Who the hell is this man??

JASON
Your father� in some form or another.

SONORA
I have to tell my mom.

JASON
She�ll ask how you got the logs.

SONORA
I�ll make up something.

JASON
Quick way to lose credibility.

SONORA
I�ll figure it out.

JASON
I�ll come with you.

SONORA
I thought you didn�t want to get involved.

JASON
Maybe she�ll actually listen if both of us are there.

SONORA
Thanks.

JASON
[hugs her] It�ll be okay.

[SCENE 4: Jason and Sonora are sitting on the couch upstairs. Gail walks in from the deck]

GAIL
Oohh it�s cold out there.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Not as cold as it�s going to get in here.

GAIL
What are you two doing looking all secretive??

SONORA
We need to talk.

GAIL
Okay, give me just a second. I need a drink. [gets a drink from the refrigerator and sits down on the love seat] What�s up??

JASON
It�s about Leo.

GAIL
Oh?? What about him??

SONORA
He�s been.. Talking to girls and saying things.

GAIL
What kind of things??

SONORA
He�s been telling them he loves them, that he�s single and looking for love.

GAIL
[laughs] Oh really?? And who told you this??

SONORA
I.. read it.

GAIL
You read it?? You haven�t been sneaking around his computer again because dammit Sonora, how many times do I have to tell you not to do that??

SONORA
Someone messaged me, and said they knew about it.

GAIL
And why would they message you??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] There has got to be an easier way to do this.

JASON
Why don�t we ask him and see what he says??

SONORA
Yeah, where is he??

GAIL
Where do you think??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] This is not going well.

GAIL
LEO!!

[Leo comes in]

LEO
Yeah I�m watching a ballgame.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Yeah I bet, your balls 1 on 1 fighting to get to the other person on the screen you�re screwing in cyberspace.

GAIL
Tell him what you told me.

SONORA
Umm.. [VOICE OVER] I�m really not good at this. I�m such a coward sometimes.

LEO
What is it??

SONORA
I heard from someone in the game room you go to to play games. [VOICE OVER] Yeah �games� being the key word.

LEO
I thought that was you in there.

SONORA
Yeah I said I was a friend and they told me some things. [VOICE OVER] This is a bold face lie but what else can I do??

LEO
What things??

SONORA
That you have been talking to girls, telling them you love them, that you aren�t married, looking for love.

[Leo laughs]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Is this some elaborate practical joke that I�m the butt of??

GAIL
Is it true??

LEO
Of course not!!

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh my God!! He�s lying!!

GAIL
See??

SONORA
He�s lying. I heard he was saying these things and that he was telling them our home address and all this other stuff.

GAIL
They were probably just kidding around.

SONORA
NO!! It�s true!! I know it is.

GAIL
You�re going to take a stranger�s word over your own father�s!?!

SONORA
Are you going to take your husband�s word over your daughter�s??

GAIL
That�s not what this is about. They were just messing with you.

LEO
I talk to a lot of people online Sonora. Not all of them like me and are just trying to get me in trouble.

SONORA
What about someone named Allie?? Do you talk to someone named Allie?? [VOICE OVER] I know the answer. YES!! She�s the main one he says these things too.

LEO
I talk to someone claiming to be named �Allie�, but see he�s a guy pretending to be a girl.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh this is some Jerry Springer shit.

JASON
Do you ever say things to this person??

LEO
Oh I just play a bit in the game room, helping him convince people he�s a girl.

GAIL
Do you do hugs and kisses with him??

LEO
Yeah but just to keep up the act.

SONORA
Bullshit

GAIL
Sonora!!

LEO
Look I talk a lot of stuff in there but it�s just role playing.

SONORA
Then why did you refer to Allie as a girl in private chat.

LEO
I don�t talk to him in private chat unless he�s telling me things to say to make his act look more convincing.

SONORA
What about giving out our address??

LEO
I gave it to him. I know him in person, I�ve seen him at basketball games.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Funny how in private and in the profile it says Allie is from New Zealand.

GAIL
So there�s no truth to this.

LEO
Of course not.

SONORA
I saw in their profile that they are from New Zealand.

LEO
Sonora it�s part of the act. He doesn�t want people to know who he really is. And actually he was probably the one messaging you playing a joke.

GAIL
Why would he do that??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Busted!! All right mom.

LEO
I don�t know.. But.. Oh all right it�s true. It�s all true. I�m so sorry. She�s telling the truth.

GAIL
She was right all this time. You have been screwing around behind my back you cheating bastard!!! [slaps him across the face and knees him the balls] Now that computer gets the hell out of this house or you do!! Now which is it??

[BACK TO PRESENT. Everything passed Gail asking why he would do that was just a fantasy of Sonora�s]

LEO
He has a weird sense of humor.

SONORA
But why would he want to get you in trouble??

GAIL
How would he know the answer to that Sonora??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Maybe because he�s lying thru his teeth.

LEO
Look a lot of people pretend to be who they aren�t, isn�t that right Sonora??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Is he looking for back up or an accessory??

JASON
Leo yes that is sometimes true but are you saying this is all a fantasy??

LEO
Yeah I�m just playing around, that�s all.

SONORA
So you did say you loved them??

LEO
Nooo. I just say things in public rooms.. I�m not stupid enough to do that in private.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] LIAR!!

LEO
Now can we let this go??

GAIL
Good idea!!

SONORA
I heard it was real, that he�s been doing it with several people. And how did I get the name �Allie� right??

LEO
He�s just playing with you to make me look bad.

SONORA
Why would he do that if he�s a friend??

LEO
Who knows with him.

SONORA
Okay well can I come into the room??

LEO
Why would you want to do that??

GAIL
Sonora you have no business or reason to invade his privacy.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Because he also doesn�t claim to have a daughter.

JASON
What harm could it do??

GAIL
There�s no need at all except to make Leo uncomfortable.

LEO
I guess if you want to but no one I know may come in if they know you�re there.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] That makes no sense!!

GAIL
Why wouldn�t they??

LEO
They�re just strange that way.

SONORA
But I can go in there.

LEO
Yes but just say you�re a friend, not my daughter.

SONORA
Why?!?!

GAIL
That is his business, not yours. He doesn�t need to introduce you and you shouldn�t be ordering him to.

JASON
She�s not.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Fuck the Twilight Zone, I�m in another universe.

GAIL
What if we followed you around online, would you tell people we�re your parents??

SONORA
YES!!

GAIL
Well he doesn�t have to tell people who you are. Besides you don�t want him giving out personal info right?? Wouldn�t telling people you�re his daughter be doing that??

SONORA
You have twisted this around so much and you�re not listening.

GAIL
I have listened and you are NOT making any sense.

SONORA
What about the private messages??

GAIL
Sonora you�re taking this too far, can we please just let it go?? You�re just trying to cause trouble.

JASON
No she�s not, she�s just trying to find out the truth.

GAIL
Whatever is in his private messages, it is none of your concern, now either drop this or I�m going to get VERY mad at you.

SONORA
At me?!?! How about we look at the logs??

GAIL
Are you saying you have logs and that you read his PRIVATE chats behind his back??

SONORA
Well�

JASON
The point is he�s also giving out our personal home address to this person.

LEO
Look I only give it to people I know in person. I�m not stupid enough to give it out otherwise.

SONORA
What about that website??

LEO
You know what, forget this. I�ll just never get on the computer again. Will that make you happy??

GAIL
Now see what you�ve done?? Why are you trying to make him miserable?? You make it so he can�t have any fun and drive everybody in this house crazy!!

JASON
Don�t be mean to Sonora.

GAIL
What about her?? She�s being mean to her father!! Now listen and listen good, stay out of his chat rooms, don�t go anywhere he goes, just stay out of his business all together!!

SONORA
Will you just listen!?!?

GAIL
Sonora I have heard enough!! This has gone on long enough!! You have privacy and so does Jason, your father deserves some too!! I am sick of this and I am NOT listening to another word!! [gets up]

LEO
[looks at Sonora] Look, I know you mean well but you�re barking up the wrong tree. Trust me. [gets up and walks away]

JASON
Are you okay??

SONORA
He�s lying!!!!

JASON
I know, but there�s nothing you can do.

SONORA
We�ll see about that.

JASON
She�s not going to listen.

SONORA
I know.

JASON
So what are you going to do??

SONORA
I don�t know.

[SCENE 5: Sonora is upstairs and Gail is getting ready for work]

SONORA
Mom, can we talk??

GAIL
If it�s about your father, no. I am so sick of it. I should just have the internet cut off in the entire house

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Spoken like the true queen of overreacting that she is.

GAIL
Look, I have more important things to worry about than what your father does on the computer.

SONORA
What if he�s talking to other girls and that Allie person really is a girl?? Are you saying you wouldn�t care??

GAIL
Yeah.. I am. Now please.. you know I love you. Please let this go, for me. [leaves]

JASON
[walks up the stairs] I think she knows.

SONORA
I doubt it.

JASON
She�s in too much denial. I don�t buy it. I think she knows and she�s not wanting you to know and think less of your father.

SONORA
Well him standing there basically calling me a liar and letting her bitch me out makes me think less of him more so than any words he could say online.

JASON
I know. She�s trying to protect you Sonora and him. Your mom isn�t dense, she knows what�s going on. She probably also knows that she can�t stop it and the most she can do is protect you from learning the whole truth.

SONORA
But I know the whole truth.

JASON
I don�t think she realizes just how much you know. I�m not saying she knows it all. I think she knows some, you know more and quite frankly she doesn�t want to know. She�s perfectly happy with things the way they are. And by playing oblivious and defending your father, she feels she�s protecting you.

SONORA
That doesn�t make sense.

JASON
Your mom rarely makes sense.

SONORA
She�s not protecting me though. If anything they are both hurting me by turning on me like this.

JASON
Then let it go or at least pretend you have. You�re not going to win this battle.

SONORA
I hate my father.

JASON
No you don�t.

SONORA
Well he just betrayed me. He sold me out to protect his stupid secrets.

JASON
True but I do think he loves you.

SONORA
He has a fucked up way of showing it.

JASON
True.

SONORA
How could he do this to me?? [has tears]

JASON
[walks over to her and holds her] I don�t know sweetie, I don�t know.

[Leo walks in. Jason looks over at Sonora]

JASON
Let�s go downstairs.

SONORA
In a minute.

JASON
Try to stay calm.

SONORA
[nods] Okay.

[Jason walks downstairs]

LEO
So are we all squared away??

SONORA
Sure. [VOICE OVER] You bastard.

LEO
Good. Look you know that those people pretend to be girls or guys.

SONORA
Not all the time.

LEO
Yeah most of the time they do. This person came in pretending to be a girl and started talking about farts.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Wasn�t me but I have been known to start a discussion or two on the subject.

LEO
See what I mean??

SONORA
No.

LEO
No self respecting girl talks about farts.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Oh whatever.

LEO
Now you thought I was cheating on your mother didn�t you??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Does the phrase �HELL YES� mean anything??

LEO
I love your mother, I�m never going to leave her. Now you know that right??

SONORA
Yeah. [VOICE OVER] You�re still a jerk.

LEO
So we�re okay??? You understand what I was saying?? I�m just playing around on there.

SONORA
Okay.

LEO
People do it.

SONORA
Okay

LEO
And that Allie is really a guy, you believe me now right?? Right??

SONORA
Sure.

LEO
Just trust me on this ok?? You believe me now??

SONORA
[stares at him for a moment] [VOICE OVER] Could he be more desperate to get me to believe him and be on his side??

LEO
Sonora?? You believe me right??

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] 1...2...3....

LEO
Do you believe me??

SONORA
[walks over to him, looking calm and confident] You really want to know what I believe?? I believe you�re lying your ass off and that Allie is a female, and you have been saying those things to her knowing she�s female and have been doing it in private messages.

LEO
Sonora..

SONORA
No.. you asked, I�m telling. Now if you want to have a fantasy world where you�re the next Don Juan, you go right ahead. If you want to tell people you�re looking for love, fine, happy hunting.

LEO
I think you�re confused.

SONORA
No.. I�m more clear and informed than you think. I know the truth. I know it all daddy dearest. Just admit it.

LEO
[sighs] It doesn�t mean anything. Yes what you�re saying is true but Sonora, I love your mom. I�m not going to leave her.

SONORA
Oh I know that.

LEO
I have never slept with any other woman.

SONORA
You know, it was bothering me before that you said all those things and did who knows what with those girls online. You want to play lover boy online go ahead. But you sold me out yesterday.

LEO
I would never.

SONORA
But you did. You stood there and listened to me and knew every word I was saying was the truth and you did nothing but deny it and make me look like the bad person.

LEO
It�s not a big deal to just play online.

SONORA
I�m talking about you betraying me.

LEO
That�s a strong word.

SONORA
It�s the truth. Now I know the truth. Mom won�t listen to me about it at the moment.

LEO
Are you going to tell her??

SONORA
[remembering how Gail said if it was all true she didn�t care] No. [VOICE OVER] Time to look good.

LEO
Thank you.

SONORA
I will keep your secret. I�m not going to tell anyone. Not even Jason. [VOICE OVER] Jason already knows but he doesn�t need to know that.

LEO
There really isn�t anything to tell.

SONORA
So you want me to tell??

LEO
No.

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] Translation: I�m trying to convince you there�s nothing to tell so you won�t bust me and my ass won�t wind up in a sling

LEO
Just keep it a secret for now and there really is nothing to tell.

SONORA
Yeah. [VOICE OVER] Insert a big �RIGHT� after that word.

LEO
I need to go run some errands.

SONORA
I do have one request.

LEO
What�s that??

SONORA
Don�t give out our home address anymore.

LEO
It was just that one time.

SONORA
Make it the last.

LEO
[walks to the sliding doors] Give me a hug.

[Sonora hugs Leo and he hugs her back close]

SONORA
[VOICE OVER] First hug my father has voluntarily given me in 6 years.

LEO
Love you lots.

SONORA
I love you too. [watches him leave and turns around, back to the doors] [VOICE OVER] That felt pretty good.

[Leo comes back and opens the door]

LEO
We okay??

SONORA
Sure.

LEO
Good. [leaves]

SONORA
[walks towards the stairs and walks down, feeling good about herself for standing up to him] You�re still a bastard.

[SCENE 6: Sonora is on the computer writing a journal entry]

�HOW DO YOU FORGIVE THE BETRAYAL OF A PARENT??�

I don�t think it�s really possible. Once a parent betrays you, what you thought you knew and could trust in that parent is gone. You grow up thinking your parents are a certain way and then you find out, usually in a harsh way, that they aren�t. You think you know them so well and as it turns out you don�t know them at all. They do or say something you never thought could be said or done by them. The betrayal cracks the foundation of love and trust you had in them. In time, the betrayal may be forgiven or overlooked, but the sense of security, love and admiration you felt for them will never be whole again. Once it�s cracked, no amount of glue can put it back together the way it was. When 9/11 happened the sense of security and belief that we were always safe was forever damaged beyond repair. The belief that everything was okay was shattered and had to be rebuilt, but never the exact way it was. The same is said when a parent betrays you. The relationship may heal and rebuild but will never be what it was before the betrayal. But with that and 9/11, I know I would rather know the truth and see what�s coming then be completely blindsided again like I was. It�s surprisingly less painful when your expectations aren�t so high.

[FADE OUT]

[EPISODE 1.2]


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