I need to talk more about the no sex issue. It is literally depressing me like crazy. Jeff used to be so into me and granted we weren't like rabbits but we at least had sex 99% of the time on a 2-3 times a week basis. I remember when going a week used to upset me. Now it's been more like 2-3 months!! Lately I have to keep asking him if he wants to have sex..or rather try to..he'll mostly say no..every now and then he'll say yes (he hasn't made the first move in so long..long before I was able to buy alcohol legally I think) and then he won't be able to keep an errection around me or won't be able to get hard to begin with.
Now normally I would be worried about something wrong. But considering he has noooooo (and I mean none..zilch..zero) problem jerking off whenever he wants to, there obviously isn't something wrong with him. I know it's nothing wrong with me. Well not something that a doctor can fix.
I'll admit I've gained a bit of weight since we got married..okay a lot of weight. But still..he says he's still attracted to me and that I'm not fat and I still look good. Then what the fuck is it?!?!?!
We'll start kissing and feeling each other..sometimes he won't get hard. It's like his dick is detached from his body. Sometimes he'll get hard then as soon as he gets on top of me to have sex...poof....down like a pile of bricks. It's like it got popped with a pin and is not deflating. The last time he came with me was so long ago that I am sure the sperm has since died and desenigrated into nothingess. In fact..I think it was still Spring. Actually I KNOW it was still Spring..I think I was still 24 believe it or not.
I think I may have figured it out. It doesn't make me look too good but hey..guess what..neither is that!!
Here's what our desktop looks like: