The current fight is my mother wanting me and my husband to go to my step-grandmother's(grandfather's 2nd wife) for the day tomorrow. Now I love my step-grandmother very much. I always will, but I just don't want to go tomorrow. I have several reasons. One of which is my aunt (whom I really care about as well) is going to be there as well and last time I talked to her she wanted to talk to me about a miscarriage I had recently. My mother doesn't understand. Yeah easy for her to say.

Am I wrong for not wanting to go?? It's nothing against my step-grandmother, or my aunt...but I know if my aunt brings it up and I'm sure she will, it's going to upset me. I can't hide from her forever and I don't want to. Another reason I don't want to go, is my step-grandmother always has these Christmas dinners. Well this year she's not having it, which is why my mother wants to visit her tomorrow. Well, when I was pregnant, I kind of had this image or day dream I guess of my husband, me and the baby going there for the Christmas dinner. I would think about her crawling or trying to walk all thru the house, giggling, playing and making her rounds to everyone. And she'd be wearing a little Christmas themed dress and be SO cute. Maybe this sounds crazy but considering I pictured that happening this Christmas, I just wouldn't feel comfortable or in the best of moods going there now. Am I wrong to feel that way??